HELP please..I'm considering suicide?

I'm so sorry sweetie, my heart aches for you. The only thing I can suggest is maybe try to join a sport if your mom is okay with that. Your mom could come to every practice and watch and you could be in touching distance of other kids and let off endorphins while you exercise. Did your mom have a bad experience like a rape or becoming a prostitute as a child? She sounds like an emotionally scarred lady. You could also read books that take you to another world. Sometimes you just get so caught up in the story you lose yourself and completely relax. Even if your not a good reader or don't like reading. By the way when you are eighteen you are an adult and you do not have to fear her. if she turns into a stalker get a restraining order! Things will go up from here just do well in school so maybe you can get a scholarship to a great college and get out of your house. I hope things get better for you and don't give up on life you seem like a sweet, smart person who is better than being influenced by their parents actions. There is always someone that loves you if you don't think so then you wrong. I love you just from reading this!